Filed under: just day-to-day
so i went to do a personality test. fortunately it only has 9 questions.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don’t like conflict. Because you’re so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
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well that’s it! some parts are quite accurate! mhm.. sorta
Filed under: just day-to-day
Dear All!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I hope the year’s been great for everyone. It’s your choice how you wanna see it, and with what eyes you’re gonna look at it with, in retrospect. And, think about how you’re gonna face the next year. 6 days ain’t a lot of time, haha…
with love,
matt
Recently in Singapore, there has been a furore among Serangoon Garden residents.
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For those who do not live in Singapore, Serangoon Gardens is an upclass estate, where residents are usually white-collared workers, or expats. Most Singaporeans live in government housing, also known as HDB (housing development board) flats, but all of the residents in Serangoon Gardens live in landed property, a luxury (and to an extent a status symbol) which a large portion of Singaporeans simply can’t afford.
Topics i want to talk about today (lest i forget while writing this) :
supposed “elitism”, the “brightest” minds of the nation, racial discrimination
and one other topic that has a larger-than-life significance (to me at least)
dreams. (where i’ll be probably comparing Singaporeans with Americans)
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The reason for the complaints is due to the proposal of the government, to change a vacant technical school into residential premises for foreign workers.
The announcement has caused an uproar among citizens of that area, citing an increase in crime rate, disrupting tranquility, maintaining cleanliness, decreasing safety levels and the workers befriending domestic helpers (maids) as the some of the problems of having the worker’s hostel there. Other issues raised also include the drop in value of their houses and estate in general.
It took me a few days to put my thoughts into words, and for my considerations to mature slowly. Although i’m not in a position to comment on those who were against the idea, because ultimately, i’m just an onlooker, i feel that the residents should perhaps look at the bigger picture, contemplate about things further ahead, and rethink our past, or rather, our forefather’s past.
There are currently 500,000 foreign workers in Singapore, yes, i didn’t quote an incorrect figure, just refer to Sunday Times, 7th September edition. To put that number into perspective, Singapore currently has a population of 4.3 million people. That’s close to 13% percent our population, in other words, about 1 in 10 people you find on the street is a foreign worker. This means that as much as some of us might not like them, they are here to stay, and without them, Singapore’s infrastructure would tumble, as there’s no one else who would fill in the job vacancies left by them when they leave. Given the current situation, that construction sites dominate many areas in Singapore, they are an indispensable force of modernism for us.
Most of them tell a story extremely familiar to those told by our grandparents. They are here to work, earn money, and send the money back to their countries, where their families are still struggling to survive there. If they have children, the task becomes even harder as education would remove a hefty sum his salary. They work all day, getting little rests, and have to deployed whenever they are told to do so. The going is tough, but they have little choice, unlike us. Their meals, from my observations, consists only of rice and gravy most of the time, with the occasional bits of meat when they are lucky. Of course, they are not perfect. Who is? Several of them do drink alcohol under flats, and create a nuisance of themselves, but don’t some Singaporeans do so as well? (i’ve seen many young teenagers doing so) They are humans too, they should be given equal rights, why is it that we are treated “more fairly” than them? Why the double standards? Just because they come from “third-world”/undeveloped countries, and have bad habits like littering/spitting? Yet again, many Singaporeans spit AND litter. So, why the double standard, especially those who talk about their ills, but commit them themselves. Expats have no problem living here, amongst us, but “foreign” workers do.
Isn’t this nothing but racial discrimination, and elitism?
I have no qualms about being an elite, or having the pride of being at the top. Elitism is based on the survival of the fittest, and a target that others might want to achieve. It is a very natural tendency for people to divide, and group people into suitable categories. The most elite warriors of a tribe fight at the frontlines of war. However, the elites should never lose footing from the group, because the ones who hoist them to where they are, are the people below, who hope that these “elites” could be honest, and hopefully represent them and their needs on a higher level.
But isn’t it rather disconcerting and worrying, that these white-collared workers, who represent the cream of the crop of the Singaporean society, are thinking at such superficial levels, and not going to delve deeper, and more critically about their choices and thoughts? It is true that these smarty-pants have no heart for the common man? That all they really care about is their own wealth, and issues? I agree that some of their concerns are rooted in their care for their families, but they are jumping into conclusions too fast, and overlooking many other larger issues while indulging in their supposed self-centredness.
This cold attitude to foreign workers is destroying all their hopes, especially when some of them would really want their entire family to live here, and eventually become Singaporeans.
This reminds me of the American Dream, which still has many instances of occurrence in present day USA. Sure, the States isn’t a perfect nation, but at least, it has room for dreams, and it IS a society where dreams are achievable via hardwork, and sincerity, for ANYONE.
A great example is Lopez Lomong, who was born in Sudan. His story can be read from many sites, just google the name. As a child, he lived in fear, and often was brought close to the brink of death. However, he was lucky to have been adopted by American foster parents, and was the flag-bearer for USA during the Beijing Olympics 2008, when he has only been announced a citizen for a year.
Would the Singaporean society ever allow such dreams to happen?
I should really consider what i think about whenever i see foreign workers from now onwards.
-matt
Filed under: life reflections
because there are things to smile for. (justify that yourself, haha, i’m lazy to do so)
the purest smile comes from a young soul.
the bittersweet smile comes from a grandma who has been through countless pains.
the sincerest smile comes from a grateful person.
the most important smile comes from you.
hmm.
it’s been a long time since anything was written here. but i guess today i’ll rant about something exclusively unique, in a certain manner.
well. that something is something that almost everyone has in some way or another, experienced, sometime in their lives.
but today, i’d just like to spend a few moments talking about, a really small portion of it. one that deals with just two individuals, coming from different planets.
well. what is it?
a feeling?
an emotion?
a… intense obsession?
or perhaps even, a trade? status symbol? or maybe, a trophy?
well, i’ve never been through one myself. so i can’t tell exactly what it is, or what it should be. probably no one can.
when do you know you’re doing it right? that.. it is something that would last, and bear “good fruit”?
how to know that it is wrong, and going toward a twisted direction?
when do you know it’s real? and not just like a passing cloud above
why, why is it even there in the first place? is it fair to logically prove it’s significance and.. rationale?
it’s messy, but could be organised, complicated, but that can be fixed. it’s warm, but there are times when you’ll feel especially lonely and cold, and other times when cringing bitterness would engulf you totally. sometimes, all you could feel is the opposite, and you become a living oxymoron.
i don’t want it. but, it just comes to me. and stronger than before.
i don’t like it. but, i can’t help it at all.
i know it’s just so wrong. but, i can’t stop myself
one thing for sure, tested and proven.
all it takes is a little time for it to simmer. and it’ll probably feel like it has never existed, or happened before. yeap, that’ll be what i’ll do, albeit all the reluctance.
perhaps it’s just some weird, self-imposed curse that i’m living within.
God Bless,
matt
Filed under: just day-to-day
what if… i mean, what if, everyone else says what if? what will the world be like?
just a line for the day. if you’d like to, just think about it
might come back to this soon! if i could think about it adequately
right, need some sleep, goodnight!
God Bless,
mattemma
Hey people,
just one more before going to sleep.
I attended the 6 pm mass today. And i saw Ms. Sophie!
Well, besides that, i met Dom Dillon too. Haven’t spoke too him in ages. And i had to share a quote from him today. Made me think. I really think he’s very blessed, his words are always so… insightful and wise.
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(Matt reads book and refers to the projector)
Matt: They got the Psalm Response wrong!
(Dom looks at the book, and looks at the projector, ponders a while)
Dom: Perhaps it’s a different intepretation.
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Well, i’m not sure if that phrase was as insightful to you as it was to me. It was quite an eye-opener for me. Look at the difference in our answers, and you could see which belonged to someone who thinks within the box, and someone who, well, thinks beyond that.
There’s nothing “wrong” in this world, it’s just that it is viewed with different eyes. Take for example, religion and philosophy: there’s no right or wrong religion or philosophy (cults excluded) there are only different interpretations.
Who are we to judge in the first place.
(Remember that matthew)
God Bless,
mattemma
Hey people.
Today, i made a huge mistake.
I reinstalled my wireless internet adapter driver.
Well, there aren’t much problems with it. In fact, it’s perfectly fine. Thing is, i got this thing working the second time i installed it. And apparently, the second installation used a proprietary software from the company, as opposed to the “Windows Zero Configuration Tool” (which was rumored to by a million times better).
I attributed the first installation not working to some add-on i have that supposedly increases internet speed.
And so, i started on my journey to reinstall the adapter, back to the first installation settings.
I followed the instructions (well, i tried).
And. I reinstalled it the first time.
Didn’t work.
I panicked.
I uninstalled it, reinstalled it to the original settings that WORKED (which means square one).
It still didn’t work.
I panicked, i was scratching my head by now.
I uninstalled it, removed all the files, restarted the com.
Installed the first installation, hoping it’ll be better this time.
IT SHOWED IT BEING CONNECTED! I WAS SO GLAD!
I opened safari
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I opened Firefox
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I opened Sunbird
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SHUCKS!!
IT DOESN”T WORK!
By this time, i was feeling really stressed.
Again, i uninstalled everything, and rebooted. My pc by now was probably upset with me already. It didn’t want to reboot. I had to manually reboot it.
I reinstalled it to original settings again, praying really hard.
Everything seemed fine. Bars were high, lights were green.
I opened Firefox
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..
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NOOOOOOOOOO!
It didn’t work.
I plugged out the connection (USB), plugged it right in again.
And, perhaps the computer has recovered from its teaching-me-a-lesson tantrum.
And, it worked.
Moral of the story: if something’s working fine, be contented. You can try fiddling with it, but risk the consequences (which includes everything which should go right, going the other direction)
Perhaps sometimes, we are too obsessed with getting the better or best, that we fail to realise that what we already have is adequate for our needs, and fits perfectly. And one day, we might be tired of status quo, and try for something which we feel is better, but in the end, it wasn’t a right decision. We fail to attribute value to the things we already have, the things we deem to be bare necessities. Only when we lose it totally, that we feel it was a luxury that we should cherish. Adequacy could be the perfect solace in an ever increasingly disoriented world.
okay, thinking stops here for now, lest i venture too far.
i just lost an hour of sleeping time to my absolutely ridiculous mind ![]()
(Mostly from the interesting experience)
But, i felt there was something to learn from this. And so felt the urge to say it.
School in approximately 5 hours!
Goodnight! wherever you may be.
God Bless,
mattemma
Filed under: just day-to-day
Hey guys,
I’ve realised that whenever i update, there will always be a rise in readership. (It’s a free service offered by wordpress) So i presume there are people who are reading what i have to say, and i’d like to take this opportunity to thank you people!
But, i’d love to receive your input as well! If you do have anything else to add, constructive feedback, criticisms and rebuttals, feel free to voice them!
Thanks
God Bless,
mattemma
hey,
every now and then, i talk about change.
I believe the past 6 months have changed me a great deal, about how i think, how i feel, how i react, and who i am as a person, and how people perceive me to be.
In some ways, i feel it’s for the worse, and i really dread that feeling. I’d really like to apologise to everyone and anyone, if i have offended you, hurt you, or cause your distress in some way. And i’d like to thank everyone who loves me for who i am.
change is constant, and i pray that, the progression would be positive. but again, ultimately, it’s a judgment made by myself. have to remind myself more often of who i am, and whether i’m me truly.
HAH, this post is actually just a visible manifestation of a reminder for myself. But really, do tell me straight in the face, if you feel i should do things in another way. input always has its purpose, although it might not be pleasant, however, the end is always constructive, if one perceives it to be.
my answers for default questions have changed, and i’m spending less time thinking about words that i speak. i think my brain has to be faster to keep up, so i’ll still be tactful, and make decisions that we not be easily regretted and frowned upon after like, 3 seconds, when it becomes an onset reflection instead.
cheers to growing up, and change, although i sincerely have no idea where it’ll bring me to.

God Bless,
mattemma


